Monday, July 7, 2014

INTJ

It's July, yes. So what?
Oh, yes. Suppose Yvette could be happy as Costa Rica lost to Netherlands. Yes.
And some bad runs in my days.

Duh, stressing days.
It was... extreme and deadly, some sly tricks and full of treachery.
Just, unacceptable to me, somehow.

Whatsoever, I wonder if I'm basically changed, by personality due to events that passed me. So, basically.. I took various personality tests. I mean it, numbers of them. I was curious, dying to know whether I am changed or not by basic personality. So, I took some tests in the internet, not knowing their perfection nor their valid proportional. Funny thing is, I'm not a different man by Jung's basic theories and Myers-Briggs tests. Wait, what?


Monday, June 30, 2014

June of 2014: A Month of Changes

"Juni, sebuah bulan dimana dihabiskan berbagai jiwa untuk berlibur, bukanlah bulan yang sama bagi saya.
Tidak lagi sebagai penulis yang setiap hari menulis, tidak lagi sebagai aristokrat yang hidup tanpa bahaya;
Tidak lagi menatapi monitor diam, tidak lagi tidur tanpa rasa dingin menggigil;
Waktu berlalu begitu cepat, sangatlah cepat anda tak sadar untuk dipanggil,
Begitu relatifnya, begitu mengejutkan ketika sudah waktunya untuk metamorfosis.
Hingga saatnya diriku nantinya menjadi dewasa, jadilah diriku terbiasa menangis..

Meratapi sebuah kisah kecil, sebuah jalur hidup yang begitu pedih;
Dimana di saat engkau berkesulitan, maka dibiarkanlah sendiri engkau bersedih"

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

(not) Gifted

To some, they said I was a useless human,
To some others, they said I was a natural failure,
To some others, they said I was a gift, the last one,
To some others, I was recognized as incapable, lonely person

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Running Out of Letters

It's finally my first day to be running out of letters, in papers.
I mean, it's been a long time I've stopped writing poems because I have no words that fit, ever.
One long time, I finally not writing a single poem in a full single near-24 hours
(since a day, astronomically, is no longer 24 hours perhaps but just 23 hours 59-minutes or less)
I'm finally running out of letters!

Saturday, May 10, 2014

Memutuskan Pilihan...

Selama nyaris sebulan ini, setelah UN tepatnya, saya dihadapkan pada banyak tugas di rumah dan berbagai pilihan rumit. Pada awal dan pertengahan, saya seringkali dibantu oleh orangtua saya. Tetapi lama-lama saya harus mandiri dan orangtua saya mendorong untuk memberikan keleluasaan untuk melakukan berbagai tugas. Berhasilkah saya menjadi sepenuhnya mandiri sejak saat itu? Tidak.